I Need Words
In 38 days I will be a husband. I will make a covenant with God and Monica and I will declare that nothing will separate us until death do us part. It won’t be the romance that sustains our marriage over 1 year, 5 years, 10 years, 25 years or more. Rather, it will be the institution of marriage and our covenant to one another that will sustain our romance. In 38 days I will not only be a husband, but a church planter, brother, son, friend and pastor as well. Yet, I am not simply adding on a wife. My whole life is to be re-imagined by what it means to be married. I will be a different church planter, brother, son, friend and pastor because I am a husband. The way I look at the entire world is and will change. Everything I think, say or do will be affected by my union with Monica.
So in these days leading up to our marriage, I am learning how to re-imagine my life. How to reorient it with Monica and our relationship. How to center my life on God in the midst of this great and noble task. And as I do, I am left reflecting on these words to God, for this reorientation and re-imagination ought to only be done with and through a reliance upon Him:
I need words
As wide as sky
I need language large as
This longing inside
And I need a voice
Bigger than mine
And I need a song to sing You
That I’ve yet to find
I need You,
Oh, I need You
To be here now
To hear me now
“I Need Words” by David Crowder Band off of “Can You Hear Us” 2002. All rights reserved.
happy for you. and i really liked this post. you really are a romantic skinny-ass punk, huh?
Amen Ben…and what an amazing “new you” it will be…marriage is such a huge blessing. I am so thankful for it every day. It magnifies our earthly weaknesses while providing the solution – our spouse who loves us so and and in this undconditional love completes where we lack (humanly and in the flesh of course)…and all because God loved us enough to provide that person for us (yay!). You are right when you say that marriage will effect every other part of “you” and who you are. God will use marriage to teach you things about yourself you never knew possible b/c you simply weren’t in the position to know those things yet. Marriage is sacred and while fun, amazing, joyful, and pleasurable – it is also a classroom where God teaches us to be more and more and like His son, Jesus Christ, every.single.day without fail – and this is GOOD (sometimes it hurts (our pride haha) and is uncomfortable but it is good!
) Blessings to you and Monica on your huge day this coming Sat. I will be thinking of you both and praying for your day, your life together, and all that the Lord is currently doing with and through you both and will do in the future!!